Changing Faces; Nina’s Revision [2016]

You do not want love, you want something you consider more meaningful. You want sanity. You want some sense of accomplishment.. A way to look into the mirror and be proud of the person you are becoming. A way to be proud of what you have done. The lone wolf conquering the vast landscape all on his own. You do not want the pressure of sonnets, and love songs. Of endless devotion. You do not want to remember the water that glows in the dawn. The motion tumbled in earth. Life hidden in mounds. You do not want to remember love. You say, “I don’t want to be alone. But I need to be.” 

You cannot find 
your own eternal pulse within you yet. 
You cannot find your own meaning
for why we do anything. You will find your own way in the world without me. 

And I tell myself 
I have to let you go.